Need to clear my mind and cool down my hot head. Part of me thinks you’re reading this. Maybe I need to talk to you as much as you need to talk to me. Stop pushing me away. The more time passes, the more we need each other…
I guess it was the way it was preached, but then again, that means everyone across the world that heard it should have felt the same thing.
I just realized I’ve cried almost every service the past few weeks. I’ve known, but I know now, more than ever, that everything is done for the will of God. I can’t change what happens, and I can’t ask for anything more than what I deserve. I’ll take whatever comes my way, and do the best I can with every situation that I come across. I won’t be temped by the vices of this world, I’ll be strong in my duties, and face every challenge with God by my side. I should realize that he’d never give me anything that I can’t handle. Starting tonight, right now, I’ll do my best to make everything better, especially for myself. I’ll pass every test that God gives me, because I know, it will all be worth it in the end.
Because really, with everything that’s been going on, I can’t have it all get to me anymore. I need to either fix it to give myself some closure or just completely let go and renew myself. I need a change, I need to close a few chapters and start some new ones… Should’ve done this with every difficult situation that’s happened before, but seriously, it’s time.