If I could just turn off the world, I would. I just wanna finally relax and not have to worry, which makes me procrastinate, which makes me worry more, and hopefully everything doesn’t turn into poop in the long run. I can’t wait till i can finally get away from this, and even if I’m hated for it, i can finally put my priorities where they should have been years ago, and months ago with the things that have been happening recently. I think, that finally after 6 years, I have learned to say no. Yes, I’ll probably regret it, and it will kill me that I know I probably could have been able to do everything; but I think I’ve given up enough of every aspect of my life that I need to do what’s best for me and my family and actually think about myself for a change.
I think this was all because it hit me last week. I felt my future finally happening, And I finally saw a clear view of what I have to do to make things better for myself. I just gotta push this final leg, and I think this time, I’ll be able to start over right. God, take care of me, shower upon me with your endless blessings, and guide me through this. I will be eternally grateful.
And then I can finally breathe a bit till finals brings more gray hair days. Too much work to do with no time to do it all. *sigh. Until then, anyone know of an astronomy tower I can pitch myself off of? (haha HP in July! Wootwoot!)
i see this on my feed, and think “oh this is relevent…” and then I see you @jaaykay it to me. haha! shh! and just for the record, nothing happened here. so far so good. didnt run into you know who. lol